Monday, April 9, 2018

DEFEATED

Guest Blogger: Laela Dasher 
14yr old daughter of the King who is searching to find her confidence in Him.
  
Hey Brothers and Sisters! I am just bursting to tell you guys something! At first it was a little overwhelming but now I can’t keep it inside any longer it’s just so incredible! It has rerouted my entire view towards myself, others, and our father in heaven. It has brought me so much joy and happiness! It has changed my life? Here it is……... I am defeated. 
  
I can almost hear the gasps behind the screen as you guys read this. Defeated? But aren’t we Christians the “elite”? The “righteous”? And why should we be rejoicing over such a foreign thing? Because this place is where we will find joy. It is where we will find peace. And it is where we will fulfill God’s calling towards us.  
  
I am nearly fifteen years old and here is my confession- I am deathly afraid of having sorrow and that brings me sorrow. It scares me to think about being depressed. And I detest the thought of becoming broken. 
  
Now when I say “broken” what do I mean? In 2 Samuel, David sees a beautiful woman bathing on the roof. He follows the lustful desires of his sinful self and commits adultery with her, murdering her husband in the process. Yes. David, a man after God’s own heart coveted, lusted, murdered and still was after the God of the Universe’s heart. Why? Because he repented. He became broken. He wept. Yes he wept. His attitude wasn’t an “I got this” one. It was an “I can’t do this alone” one. His repentance song says this, “When I refused to confess my sin, my whole body wasted away, while I groaned in pain all day long. Psalms 32:4 For day and night you tormented me; you tried to destroy me in the intense heat of summer. Psalms 32:5 Then I confessed my sin; I no longer covered up my wrongdoing. I said, “I will confess my rebellious acts to the Lord.”And then you forgave my sins. Psalms 32:6 For this reason every one of your faithful followers should pray to you while there is a window of opportunity.” 
  
David fell on his knees and repented to God. He became broken. He was defeated. Did it hurt? Of course! It is always hard to confess and let go of our pride. But in the midst of our darkest times, are we able to feel God’s presence and hear him calling out to us.  
  
I’m going to let you in on a little personal fact about myself. I have the hardest feet on the face of the planet. Haha. My feet are like rocks. They are hard because ever since I was able to walk I have hated wearing shoes. I detest them. And over the years, walking barefoot over rocks and gravel and pebbles have caused my feet to develop the most unattractive calluses on the bottoms of them. While these calluses have prevented from feeling the sharp jab of a rock or the stinging pierce of a thorn in my foot, they have also kept me from enjoying the softness of my socks or the soothing scrub from my pedicure. I may not be be able to feel the pain, but with my calluses, I can’t feel the pleasure either. 
  
This is such a big issue in humans today. When we shut off our ability to feel pain and become numb to it, we shut off our ability to feel true joy. Not the fake, temporary joy that comes for a little while and then leaves us broken. I’m talking about the everlasting joy that can be found in ANY circumstance- good or bad. I don’t want to be afraid of becoming broken. I want to embrace brokenness- as much as it hurts- so I can experience WHOLENESS in Jesus Christ. We aren’t meant to live a life free of trials. We aren’t meant to live a life free of sin. We aren’t perfect. We mess up. We sin. We are dirty. But we are His. He turns our sorrow into joy. He makes beauty from our ashes. All we have to do is give up. Surrender our lives to God. Become broken. Become defeated and he will make us WHOLE. 
♥ LAELA

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