Monday, September 3, 2018

Truth Over Flattery

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Several weeks ago, my son Max asked me if I thought his hair looked good but quickly recanted the question saying, “You’ll say it looks good no matter what; I’ll ask Dad.” After getting over the initial offense, I transitioned into introspection mode and realized that I was not okay with my discovery. Deep wounds resurfaced as I was forced to recount many scenarios in my life where my desire to make someone feel good in the moment trumped truth that should have been spoken in love. It was not as though I was outright lying to them, or was it? It was from a good place in my heart - I think? The sin of flattery, so often overlooked, is easily equated with encouragement that many times slips quietly under the radar, seemingly causing no harm.

Flattery is not encouragement, and truth is not unloving, but rather flattery is the most selfish and cruelest form of dishonesty that is completely void of love.

Ouch. So why do we flatter people?
“They have counseled only to thrust him down from his high position; They delight in falsehood; They bless with their mouth, but inwardly they curse.” Psalm 62:4

“Their tongue is a deadly arrow; It speaks deceit; With his mouth one speaks peace to his neighbor, but inwardly he sets an ambush for him.” Jeremiah 9:8

“Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but deceitful are the kisses of an enemy.” Proverbs 27:6

“There is nothing reliable in what they say; Their inward part is destruction itself. Their throat is an open grave; They flatter with their tongue.” Psalm 5:9

One might be tempted to read through these verses and cringe at the thought of “people” who would do such a thing. Perhaps there was even a name or two that came to your mind as you read through these verses. I can admit to that. But over the past several years, God has been whispering four words to me over and over and over again to the point that, at times, I want to run far away from these words, but then I find myself crawling back to them because these same four words have brought me freedom in the most unlikely ways.  I am going to share them with you but only if you promise to handle them with care, receive them with love, and consider them with an open heart.
Yes, it is that simple question we should all be asking ourselves. When our carnal instinct is to devour everyone around us, to assign motives to their hearts that we cannot possibly know to be true, then we are willingly falling right into the hands of Satan himself.

I would invite you to read those verses again and consider the following:
  • When was the last time you greeted your friend with a smile when only moments earlier you were “lovingly” discussing the flaws of her character with another in the name of “concern?” You were so concerned about her on the phone with your friend, but it’s funny that she has no idea because you have all but failed to actually bring up any of those concerns to her personally.
  • Or what about slander? You knowingly lay seeds of falsehood about another brother or sister for honestly no other reason than you are feeling quite insecure about yourself. However, if you see them on the road, they are sure to receive a smile from you and possibly even a compliment because we will often do whatever it takes to convince ourselves that we do not struggle with jealousy.  
  • Then there is the question of truth. A friend asks for your advice and after contemplating in your mind the answer you believe to be the truth, you buckle at the last minute and choose to tell her what you know she wants to hear. You selfishly made this choice because you knew in the moment that to tell her the truth would cause pain, and pain is something you attempt to avoid at all costs.  Much less, you have made it your duty to please people, to assure that they all love you and like you, and the truth would have completely ruined your people-pleasing streak.


“He who rebukes a man will afterward find more favor than he who flatters with the tongue.” Proverbs  28:23

“For am I now seeking the favor of men, or of God? Or am I striving to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a bond-servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10

“Righteous lips are the delight of kings, And he who speaks right is loved.” Proverbs 16:13

“Oil and perfume make the heart glad, so a man’s counsel is sweet to his friend.” Proverbs 27:9

I can honestly say of myself that the many times I have chosen to flatter with my words over lovingly presenting the truth, it was almost always due to my own selfish desire of not wanting someone to not like me or be mad at me. As I typed that last sentence, it was as if I was back in middle school still trying to compete in a popularity contest of sorts. Sadly enough, if I allow myself to go back to that place in my mind, that place of making sure everyone is happy with me, then in an instant, I can find myself back in middle school. I am not above or have not arrived at a level of spirituality that would prevent me from becoming as deceitful a person as described in the verses written at the beginning of this post. It will be only through the grace of God by a faith that continues to encourage me to ask the question, “But what about you?” that will force me to look inwardly.

As I allow myself to look into the depths of my soul, I am simultaneously inviting the Holy Spirit into every area of my life. It is through His guidance that I can overcome my natural instinct to appease and replace it with a love that enables me to push through tough conversations. A love that invites pain and, at times, conflict because I know that when TRUTH is present, FREEDOM is waiting just around the corner.   

The TRUTH is the most beautiful thing you could ever offer someone and the most amazing thing you could ever receive. While truth often brings about seasons of pain, it most always also brings into light the source of that pain. When the source is exposed, it then begins to lose its power, and one is able to catch a glimpse of life beyond the pain. I want to be a part of that type of healing in my own life and in the lives of others. I want to see past my own thirst for personal acceptance and look ahead to experience what happens when God’s body operates the way He designed us. A body that counsels one another through the lens of God's word and not one that is driven by flattery and fear. A body that is willing to walk through the fire with and for each other even if it means we have to drag one another at times. A body that refuses to fall prey to slander and gossip and realizes that, although Satan will often bless those relationships with the feeling of an intense bond, it is merely a trojan horse lying in wait to become their demise.

God is good. His words are true. His promises still stand. Let us live our lives and truly love one another as though we believe it.
For the record, Max’s hair really did look good that day.


Monday, July 9, 2018

More Than Conquerers

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Guest Blogger: Camryn Williamson

Change. College. Death. Heartbreak. Grief. Depression. Anxiety. These words can be used to describe the last two years of my life. I graduated high school in 2015 at the top of my class, ready to take on the world and everything that would come my way in college. My dad had been battling Esophageal cancer for the past 6 years, and I knew the end was in sight. That summer he was put on Hospice care after needing surgery for a feeding tube because he wasn’t able to eat. I came to Kansas State University in the fall of 2015, walking on to the Women’s Rowing team, with my sights
set on Athletic Training as my major.

October 9, 2015. My world changed forever when my mom called me at 3:45 am to tell me that it was time for me to come home. She put my dad on the phone, and all I could hear was, “Cam? I love you. I love you, ok? I love you, Cam.” My brother, his wife, and their 2 month old baby lived in Manhattan (Kansas) at the time and we loaded up their car to drive home. We were halfway there when my mom called again, and I just stared out the window until we arrived. My mom and older sister came out of the house when we pulled up, and the 5 of us just cried in this group hug. It was the
strangest thing walking into my house with all these people there already. Manhattan is 4 hours away from my home and I immediately felt gypped that all these other people were here to see my dad leave this world, while I was stuck in a car. But I put a smile on my face, hugged people, ate some food and chatted about school before someone said, “Are you ready?” I have never cried like that before or since that day. I honestly feel sorry for those people who were in my house, because I’m sure it’s a sound that they probably won’t forget either.

College can be a challenging time for many, as you learn to navigate the real world, and make decisions that can affect you for many years to come. But college is also the time where you can have some fun by going on adventures, learning new things, and making new relationships. My first semester was full of a lot of emotions. I was learning a new sport and trying to balance school, workouts, responsibilities, and spending time with my new nephew. I put my grief on a back burner because I didn’t want to think about it. I was determined to make the most of my life, because I knew
that’s what my dad would want. He loved life, he loved people, and he loved the Lord. That’s how I wanted my life to be. So I applied to be a Camp Counselor at Camp Chyoca in Calhoun, Louisiana for the summer of 2016.

I had the time of my life. I found myself again. I absolutely loved every day. Under most circumstances, I am not a morning person. But I had no problem getting up at the crack of dawn to start my day at camp. Those 6 weeks were exactly what I needed. I learned so much about my own strengths and weaknesses, and how to handle different situations. The days were long and summers in Louisiana are HOT, so of course I had my moments when I wasn’t full of grace. I’m also semi allergic to mosquitos, yet they love me and at one point I counted upwards of 30+ bites on my
legs! But oh how much peace and joy I had in my heart. The other counselors were amazing and life long friendships were made.

But then my grief caught up with me. I tried to transfer schools at the end of the summer, but it didn’t work out. I was so afraid to come back to school. School was full of bad memories, and to make matters worse it felt like I had not made any friends at all. I was REALLY bitter. I would take every opportunity I could to make it known that my life was worse than somebody else’s. It wasn’t because I wanted their pity, it was to inform God once again that he had abandoned me. No wonder no-one wanted to be my friend, I had an awful attitude 95% of the time. Grief has this awful way of distorting the real image and stealing your joy. Your view of life becomes veiled because that’s
the only thing going on in your little world. It’s hard for other people to understand what you’re going through or why when you’re in a room full of people, you want to cry because it feels like you are alone in a dark hole.

Because of that bitterness and anger, I didn’t really care about anything. I stopped working out, I stopped eating healthy, I didn’t brush my hair, sometimes I didn’t shower for a while. I just let my body be an all consuming pit of despair. I fell into the trap of sin that enslaved me many years ago. Then I felt even more awful, but I didn’t hold myself accountable with that awful feeling. I stopped going to church, not really seeing a point in why I should.

This past summer, I chose to work on my family farm and had a lot of time to think, reflect, and talk to God. I found a lot of peace, plowing back and forth on fields for many days, but there was still a since of solitude. At the end of the summer, I tried to transfer schools, again. It didn’t work out, again. This past year I have battled depression and anxiety as my form of grief. It has been hard. I have struggled with medication that messed with the chemical balance in my brain and made me want to end my life. I started thinking of how I would do it. That scared me. I thought for a long
time that if I was depressed, it would be like the nail in my coffin, that I wouldn’t ever be able to get out of it. That scared me, so I just ignored what was going on in my heart for a long time, not wanting to deal with any emotions. So then I stopped being happy. I lost my joy. I was so angry. At God, at my family, at school.

Last week in church, our Pastor was preaching a sermon on talking to God through our series, “Questions for Everyday Faith.” He starts out in Romans 8. Immediately, I’m thinking “Oh yes, this is gonna be gooooood!” Y’all, the first sentence sets a tone for the entire chapter: “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” WOAH. Verses 31-39 are titled
More Than Conquerors, and I want to challenge you to read the entire chapter, but I’m going to focus on the last two verses. “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angel nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from he love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

Do I struggle with depression? Yes. Does that define who I am? No. Does that separate me from my Heavenly Father? No. Does that keep me from becoming whom God has called me to be? No. Does it separate me from the Father’s love? Absolutely not. Will I be able to look forward to each day with confidence in strength and without fear of the future. Yes, a thousand times, yes.

I am a conqueror. You are a conqueror. We are conquerors made through the prefect love of our Heavenly father who gives us the strength to tackle each day, each hurt, each broken heart. He has called us for more. He has called us to speak truth into each day, and spread the good news of the gospel.

My now 2 year-old nephew is the cutest thing, and he has recently started saying the phrase, “You ready?” but is sounds more like, “Youu reaaay?” And I think that’s God’s way of telling me that he’s got something bigger in store for me. And I want to be ready when the time comes.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Be the 1%

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Guest Blogger: April Estes
April Estes attended Freed-Hardeman University and is a graduate of Mississippi State University.  She is wife to one (Jason Estes), Mom to four (16, 14, 10 & 7). She is the author of two books (Seeing the Father Through a Dad and The Pearl of Great Price, 2017) and enjoys writing christian & country songs in her free time.
The past 5 years were hell on us. Within that time our son had unexplainable tummy pains that stunted his growth & development, I (a mom of 13,11,6 & 3) got cancer that required 6 rounds of chemo & radiation across 6 months in a town we had just moved to with no family.  In addition to having a learning "disabled" child that I pulled out to homeschool....not to mention all the other "normal" life things... At one point my goal was to get the kids to their first day of school so I could sleep for three hours straight after my second round of chemo. After flopping down and sleeping for a solid 30 minutes I got a phone call. All four kids had lice (!!!) and I had to go pick them up. Trials, tribulations, disease and pestilence all at once (The only Silverlining being that was the week my hair fell out so at least momma's not getting lice). You know things are baddddd when your silverlining starts with "at least I'm bald now". I look back now, barely out of the storm, and ask with wide eyed wonder "how in the world did we ever make it?"
I'd like to pull out my Disney card and say we made it because we are best friends and soulmates and nothing can separate us. But that's not true. We made it by piggybacking off all the prayers of our friends, eliminating the fluff in our lives (did you know Europeans only bathe every other day? Just sayin...), my oldest two taking charge of the youngest two and going into "survival mode", the generosity of church family who provided meals, rides and playdates for my children, and God's grace and protective hand. It was longgggg silences because sometimes silence is better than screaming temporary truths that cause permanent wounds. (There WAS yelling sometimes because yelling IS at least communicating and long text responses because when your wife is drunk on chemo sometimes that's just the best way.) It was long separations from the house for mom because she was in danger of being a raging lunatic jacked up on so much steroids so dad had to cover everything after running a factory all day.

At one point I remember we had had a fight and later (still in the thick of it ) I told my husband I was ready for our date. He asked, surprised, if we were still doing that and I said "Yes! Because we are not going to come through cancer and all the other stuff we've come through to lose our marriage because of "lack of communicating" (this was said in yelling fashion with a pointy finger LOL). It was real and raw and ugly most the time - far from the feel-good stories we hear on Christian radio many times. 

I found the stats & my engineering husband did the math and found that the chance of our marriage surviving was literally 1%. If you factor in the fact that all of these things happened at once we are probably most definitely a walking miracle!

So what's the secret?  God's grace & grit. It's praying for continual protection because there is a whole spiritual realm we can't even see fighting for our families. It's listening when you're tired and making time to understand different points of view. It's not getting everything you want and finding contentment in the discontent. It's forgiving a person when you can't even understand their point of you and really just want to punch them in the throat. It's making comparisons to women in marriages 200 years ago and reminding yourself that if he doesn't beat you and has a job he's a great catch (and him reminding himself that A wife is a blessing from the Lord even if she has cancer and is out of her mind half the time lol). It is humbling yourself to talk to friends and ask for prayers for your embarrassing needs. It is choosing to stay when you want to run. It's bringing your spouse coffee in the morning without spitting in it. It's realizing that most of your "needs" are really just "wants" and being flexible enough to accept what "is" instead of what you "want things to be."  It is spending a sixth of your bring home pay on many months of counseling and learning new ways to communicate after 20 years. It is so very hard. It is not fun. 

But it is worth it. 

If you are in a season right now where your spouse is not only not your "best friend" but feels more like the enemy, dont. give. up. 

The devil wants us to believe that The trials will last forever but they don't. The Bible says God "sets an end to the darkness" and "hold us in his mighty right hand."  

It also says sometimes he chooses to build something new. Do you know what's involved in building something new? Thoroughly Demolishing the past "thing". When people are restoring a house they have to take it down to the brass tacks. If they are about to lay a floor, there can't even be a pebble in the way because it will mess up a whole new foundational structure and cause the tile to crack. Sometimes the master Restorer has to take US down to brass tacks to rebuild something NEW that is possibly better than we could ever imagine. 

Don't give up. Remember: God is not the God of statistics he is the God of the individual ! Grit and Grace!  Be the 1%!!!

 And coffee. Always bring your spouse coffee.
April Estes


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